Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Day 334

I love having weekly points to use on nights like this....yep, you better believe we went to DQ. I am a fan of the Midnight Truffle Blizzard! ha :) Yum.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Day 333

Today was a beautiful spring day...wait, what? Oh, it's still winter?!? haha Oh well, Mother Nature missed that memo! :)

After I completed W1D3 of C25K, I decided to go for a walk to get some fresh February air! It was such a gorgeous evening for a walk. I needed the walk. I need the chilly bite of the air. Walks are therapeutic to me. It started as a kid, walking every evening in the summer and fall with my Grandma. We would walk and talk. Now I make those same walks...alone...but usually talking to no one. Whispered wishes. Prayers. Shattered moments and tears. As I said on Facebook, those long slow walks on our country road as the sun sets brings peace to my soul. True story.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Day 332

Today I am extremely exhausted (our date was a late one due to him working - we didn't get back to his town until midnight!). The nap yesterday threw off my sleep pattern and I had a hard time sleeping last night.

Thought I would take a picture to show you my left eye. By the way, this is completely normal. It looks bad, but honestly it doesn't hurt at all. There was NO pain whatsoever involved in the Lasik procedure. I dare say, I wasn't even "uncomfortable" as they say you may feel some pressure during it. Anyway, when the laser restructures the surface of your eye, it can cause bruising in the form of blood spots. Each eye has it, but my left eye is more noticeable than the right.

Sorry for how scary I look. I am not allowed to wear eye makeup (no rubbing your eyes) for 1 week and since I'm at home bummin' today...I have no makeup on at all! That's worse than having to wear my glasses all last week...and no, I'm not kidding!! Everyone always thinks I look like I'm sick when I don't have mascara on or my eyes done, so it will most likely be a long week! Side note: I hated going out on the date last night feeling "undone" without my full makeup, but electrician boy is a sweetheart and kept reiterating how good I looked. ha He's good for my ego! ;) Regardless, he's been thinking about Lasik too, so he was more than interested to hear about the whole process.

Day 331

Saturday morning I had my 1 day Lasik follow-up appointment and all was well. Since the appointment took all of 8 minutes, it was too early to do the shopping I had planned, so I made the trip home for a pedicure and grocery shopping. ha I also enjoyed one of my favorite treats, a Chocolate Ganache cupcake from Holy Cow Cupcake in Carmel! BEST CUPCAKES IN INDY. :) Thanks mom and Jen!

I was a bum all day and even took a nap! I spent the early evening getting ready for my date with the electrician. He knows how much my family enjoys going out to new restaurants, especially ones featured on shows with Adam and Guy (Food Network). ha So, he surprised me with a dinner date to Virgil's Cafe in Bellevue, KY. It was a little bit of a drive for us (especially after he worked a 12 hour shift AND had get his son to where he was spending the night, plus shower and get ready for the date) but we had an easy conversation the entire trip there. The food was good, not great, but the company made it worthwhile. It's definitely the service that makes that place famous! EVERY staff member treated us like they had known us their whole lives and neither of us had ever been there before. ha I am gonna go out on a limb here and say that I'm pretty confident there will be more dates with this guy. Still not convinced I'm ready to handle the "dad" side of his life (I do not want to rush that part and he understands), but I like him and it feels easy and fun. :) Time will tell. Sorry Missy, no self-portraits! haha Maybe next time ;) I'm surprised he didn't pull out his phone for a pic :p I had NO service the entire date so I didn't even bother looking at my phone. ha

As for updates on the other boys - I'd say hotty-bo-botty and golf boy are out of the picture. Have not heard from golf boy since before I told ya'll about him! Hotty-bo-botty texted me randomly Friday morning, but nothing since then and especially nothing of importance. Coworker boy is still as friendly as ever. Engineering boy is still traveling each week for work and I get texts very rarely. He's still interested, but I feel my interest fading fast.

Day 330

Friday was THE day!! I had my Lasik procedure done! At my one day follow-up appointment, the tech who checked my eyes told me...."yesterday you were legally blind and today you have 20/20 vision!" How awesome is that? It astounds me. I still find myself stopping and realizing that I am not wearing contacts or glasses AND I can see!!! :) I would suggest it to everyone! Great experience! It was probably the most expensive 10 minutes of my life, but I would do it again in a heartbeat.

Last day wearing glasses!!

5 minutes after the procedure, rockin' out the clinic sunglasses as mom drove me to Jen's apartment to sleep!

Day 329

Thursday I had a doc's appointment in Indy...that I will try to find time to talk about another day! (Tired and getting ready to take a nap right now.) Suffice it to say that it was about my health and I am healthy, but after some tests in the near future, we're pretty sure it'll be confirmed that I have polycystic ovarian syndrome. Explains a few things and hopefully will be under control shortly! Anyway, on to the picture of the day....haha

I had a double earache on Thursday, the one was so painful, I couldn't even touch my face or neck on that side. It's all part of the allergy cold I have right now. Ugh. I came home and had mom help me with ear candling. Love it! Felt immediately better. If you'd never done it, look it up. Disgusting but awesome all at the same time. ha

Day 328

Finally....a Purdue win!! They looked like the team we know they can be and should be while they kicked Nebraska's ass! :) Don't get me wrong, I am a Huskers fan (I almost went there for grad school), but no one else gets cheered for while they play Purdue!

Purdue Pete waving at me...cause that's how I roll! ;)

Friday, February 24, 2012

5QF - 2/24

Last Friday of February! Holy smokes! This year is flying by...at warp speed! Or is it just me that feels that way? ha

First of all - I am PUMPED about today! I was already excited this morning and then electrician boy texted me about no more glasses or contacts and I got even more amped! haha :) I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL 2:15PM EST. So if you're not doing anything around that time, I'd appreciate a little prayer! I'm confident in my doctor's ability, but it never hurts to have a little God-power behind ya when you're dealing with something as big as your eyesight!

Okay, secondly - I was blown away when I stepped on the scales and it ready 260.8!! I almost couldn't believe it! I had to reweigh myself! (Mainly because I stepped on the doc's scales yesterday - I will talk about that appt when I have time to play catch up and it said 265.8 - of course I was fully dressed, with coat, ugh.) So that makes me officially down 3.2 pounds this week! I am 3 pounds up from my lowest WW weight. LOTS more weight to go, but I think part of the answer is always coming from yesterday's doc appt. Again, I know, I need to fill ya'll in. Hang tight! ha

And although I have no time to do this right now (I'm at work), here is my 5QF answers!! Link up! :)

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1. What's your favorite way to spend down time (alone or with a significant other)?

I enjoy my alone time, but let's face it...I haven't had a significant other in awhile and I would love some down time just relaxing (like I had with coworker boy...ugh) on the couch at home while having someone to talk to and laugh with. I don't need a fancy date. ha

2. Are you the kind of person that wants things more or as soon as you know you can't have it?

I definitely want things that I've been told I can't have, but the older I get, the lesser that urge is! I am a pretty realistic person, although optimistic, and I know what I can/can't afford or work to get. I move on pretty quickly.

3. If you were given $1,000 to spend on yourself, what would you buy?

hmmm...honestly, I'd love to have $1,000 to put in my savings account to build it up. Boring answer, I know. If I HAD to spend it, I would probably buy some clothes, jewelry, shoes, get a pedicure, run my car thru the carwash (do you know how expensive that is at a good car wash? ha), and depending on what was left....go out for a nice dinner or take a short weekend trip somewhere.

4. Do you ever go out to eat by yourself?

I don't normally make a practice of going out to eat by myself, but when I'm traveling, I have no problem with it. Let's face it, most people DO NOT go out when they are alone. It feels a bit awkward, no? When I went to Australia, that was my biggest fear...not having anyone to go out with! The first meal or two alone, I felt like an idiot...my imagination surely got the best of me in thinking that everyone was staring at the girl eating ALONE. hahahaha WRONG! Nobody even cares. By the end of the trip, I was confidently eating out alone at all types of restaurants (I was gone for a month, I kinda had to get over it). Now it doesn't phase me. If I want to do something and I can't get anyone else to go along, I'll just do it. I am woman, hear me roar! :p

5. What company would you want to do a blog review for?

Um, Tiffany's? hahaha I would love to have some Tiffany jewels. Seriously. A boy could win major points with a Tiffany's bracelet...or hell, even the $100 keychain. Let's face it, I'm a sucker for silver pieces and although not that picky overall, it would be nice to say "it's Tiffany's." ha

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Day 327

I am rockin a major headache tonight. Oi. :( I even exercised tonight and was feeling really good...and then it reared it's ugly head.

I did an ionic detox tonight because my digestion is all outta whack. Hopefully I'll have time for another round this weekend. Starting tomorrow my week gets cRaZy. Seriously. I'll try to keep you updated, but don't hold me to it. It might be Sunday before I get caught up on here! ha

Monday, February 20, 2012

Day 326

So much to say today...and mostly because you, my awesome friends, have been surrounding me with encouragement and positive vibes! :) Life is good...and it will stay that way! No more drama. ha Okay, so there probably will be drama at some point because I'm juggling several guys at once, but I am determined to enjoy this phase of life. Not only are there several interested gentlemen in my life, but things I've been wanting for a long time (like having LASIK done) are starting to take place. EXCITED :)

I feel like I need to fill you all in on the newest boy in the pack - he shall be called Electrician Boy. ha As I mentioned yesterday, I was leery about even talking to this guy. Why? Well, let me back up and tell a story about my first Match experience... I fell for a guy with a 3 year old son. I fell for the guy and I fell for his son. I SOOO did not ever plan to date a guy with a kid. I was trapped in the "I want to be his first & give him his first child" syndrome. This guy totally threw me for a loop and I was enjoying every moment. Then he surprised me by telling me that he wanted to give it a shot with a longtime friend whom he'd always been interested in, but the timing had never been right. :( I was crushed. It took me awhile to get over that hurt. I told myself that I was NEVER going to date a "dad" again. Enter the new story... Electrician boy has a 10 year old son. He has been divorced for 5 years and although he recently tried to give it another shot with his ex, everything I've heard from him and our mutual friends, tells me that it was a bad situation and he is a good guy for doing what he did. *sigh* So here I am, texting practically non-stop with a dad. Eek! Tonight he called me...out of the blue. It was easy and comfortable and fun. I need fun. I know he's looking for forever. So am I, but I don't know if I'm ready for that at this exact moment. He is. Now I feel like I'm coworker boy and electrician boy is me. Oh how the tides are changing! hahaha I guess the moral of the story is that you never know where you'll end up. I have a date with electrician boy on Saturday night. Time will tell what happens.

I have not heard from any of the other boys since Saturday (coworker & hotty-bo-botty) or Sunday (engineer). I haven't messaged them because I need to know if THEY want to pursue the relationship or if it's been me keeping it going for no reason. Fingers are crossed! ha

And on to today's meal...which was so yummy! Still trying new recipes out of the casserole mag. Lots more to go! ha This is a winner and I highly suggest it. For 9 WW+ points, it is a filling serving. Your kids will love it because it is fun and includes their favorite foods - fries, cheese, hamburger! ha We only made a half recipe tonight and it was the perfect amount for 2 of us.

Cheeseburger & Fries Casserole

2 pounds lean ground beef
1 10.75 oz can condensed golden mushroom soup
1 10.75 oz can condensed cheddar cheese soup
1 20 oz pkg frozen french fried crinkle-cut potatoes
toppings (tomato wedges, pickles, etc)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. In a large skillet, cook ground meat, half at a time, over medium heat until brown. Drain off fat. Spoon cooked met into an ungreased 3-qt. casserole.

In a medium bowl, combine mushroom soup and cheese soup. Spread over cooked meat. Sprinkle with potatoes.

Bake, uncovered, for 45 to 55 minutes or until mixture is heated through and potatoes are lightly browned. If desired, serve with toppings. Makes 8 to 10 servings.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Day 325

Oh Sunday, how I love you so! :) ha I was in need of a day like today. A road trip to West LaLa with Jen, a tough Purdue loss (but my boys sure played hard!), yummy food, and the attention of a new boy.

You'll have to wait for the story of the new boy....probably until the end of the week when we meet in person. We met on Match, but graduated from the same high school (how strange is that?) and we have a lot of mutual friends who are encouraging me to give him a chance. So I am. I have no expectations, but he is easy to talk to and unlike the other boys, he seems to know what he wants for his life. That is certainly a step in the right direction. He's not someone I would have chosen on my own, but then again...neither are the other 4. I'm just going to enjoy this for awhile. Thanks Nikki for reiterating how much FUN it can be to date more than one guy at a time. The key is definitely to keep my emotions in check! Not always easy, but starting to get a handle on it.

Since you have to wait on that story, I will share today's activities - another Boilermaker game. Can't believe only 2 home games left! Sadness and relief are rolled into one on this topic. ha

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Day 324

I've kind of been a bum today...but I'm still getting used to wearing these glasses (I cannot wait until Friday!!). I just feel "off." I don't see as clearly, my balance can be a little suspect with misjudging spacial differences, and the glasses are annoying me. Ugh.

Anyway, today I wasn't the only one being lazy....apparently Toby was tired too. hahahaha He is ALWAYS tired. How do little dogs sleep so much?

I watched a few dvd's while Toby napped. I also managed to get the girls at my cousin's salon to squeeze me in for a haircut and eyebrow wax since I had to cancel my next appointment (because I'll be getting LASIK done at that time! woohoo!). I filled the prescriptions for LASIK, I had to get 2 different eye drops. The one cost $9 and the other was $93! Whew. I am so glad that I have a health savings account to pay for things like that! I also had one of my Scentsy team members come over to borrow some warmers for her display at a few upcoming shows. It was great to catch up with her!

I think it'll be an early night for me because I have to get up early to head north tomorrow. Only 3 more Purdue basketball home games left this season...kinda sad about that and also kinda relieved. haha It's gonna be a hectic week!

Friday, February 17, 2012

Day 323 & More Boy News

Well today I felt like myself!! Sounds stupid to say that, but my positive optimistic self has returned. :) After a boy-free night last night, I woke up feeling refreshed. Ahhhh. Thank goodness!

Today I wore some of my new purchases. I've worn the coral tank top before, but it was the first time to wear the brown light-weight cardi and the cuff bracelet. Love it!

I have mentioned on Twitter, but not necessarily on here, that my blog friend Nikki (who I feel like I've always known, is it just me?) has made this the year of learning about her body and getting healthy...well, she has inspired me. Sure, I've been working hard to create new habits concerning food and exercise, but there is much more to do in my life.

The first thing isn't really about health, but more something I've thought about for YEARS and just never had the ability to do it. Today I had a LASIK consult in Indy at a well-respected office that many friends have gone to and raved about! I was anxious about the appointment, but I shouldn't have been. :p It was awesome! The office is just so amazing...the entire staff made you feel at ease and you can tell they know what they are doing. I was so relieved to find out that I am a great candidate for LASIK and the doc said my eyes are super healthy, even though she can tell how long I've been wearing glasses and contacts! (got my 1st pair of glasses in the 3rd grade & started wearing contacts in the 7th grade...its been the majority of my life! 20-21 years!!) So, it just happened that next week is surgery week at the Indy center (the surgeon rotates between 3 clinics in IN & KY)....and I am booked for Friday! The bad news is that I have to wear my glasses, which are 8 years old, ALL week. I am not supposed to wear my contacts ever again. I am excited about that, but I have a super busy week and my glasses give me headaches, so we shall see how this goes! I HATE MY GLASSES. *sigh* The doc said she fully expects me to have 20/20 vision due to how great my eyes are for this. YAY! Stay posted for a full report next weekend!

And on to the boys.......last night I didn't talk to any of the guys. Nada. Nil. Zilch. I didn't message anyone today either. It was almost time for me to leave work at 11am when I got the first text of the day...from coworker boy (who found his way to the office multiple times to ask me questions today...unusual). We texted most of the day. This afternoon I also heard from engineering boy and hotty-bo-botty. Still talking to engineering boy (he is back here this weekend) and even suggested he'd be welcome to come over for a movie, but he is playing geeky engineer tonight and soldering something at his place. Hotty-bo-botty might as well not texted for no more than he said. Boys are so frustrating. You leave them alone and they flock...you put it out there and they run away. ARGH. hahahaha All I can do is laugh about this tonight.

5QF - 2/17

Yay for Friday!!! This has been the longest week EVER. Oh my. I didn't think the weekend would ever arrive! :p

Besides having an emotional week due to boys, I am also PMS'ing now. *sigh* It's no wonder I've been a monster this week!?! On that note, I weighed in this morning and I gained 1 pound, which I believe is all from the bloating, but either way it's okay.

Join us for some 5QF fun over at Mama M's!

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1. What do you do when you are really upset to calm yourself down?

I listen to music. Music is in my soul and I can't go a day without it. I listen to the radio every day on my way to and from work (thank goodness for XM radio). I listen to Pandora radio all day on my computer at work. When I workout, my iPod is totally jamming with playlists. It's always been my go to. I am thankful I grew up in a musical home. :)

2. Do you go all out for V-day or is it just another day?

I have yet to have a V-day where I'm with someone. Sad, huh? 29 years old and I have yet to experience a true Valentine's day date. I prefer to keep things simple, so I'd probably love just to have my guy make me dinner (instead of the other way around) and stay at home to watch a movie while cuddling on the couch. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

3. Are you more or less productive when Hubs is away?

No Hubs, so don't have an answer for that! ha I tend to be pretty productive no matter who is around, but I have noticed in previous relationships that the more "the boy" is around, the more I get done on super speed while he's not around...mostly so I can enjoy our time together without distraction. Once again, that's a down-side to the fact that all my serious relationships have been long distance. Sucky sucky.

4. What is your favorite time of day and why?

Mornings!!! The quiet peacefulness of an early morning has been and will always be my favorite time of the day. I am the wake up happy and cheerful person. I love being awake for the sunrise. I like spending the morning without saying a single word or being interrupted by anyone else, but I also enjoy heart-to-hearts in the early morning hours. As a State Officer, Rajean and I had many mornings in the office as the only ones up and moving...and I loved our quiet time to talk about life. :)

5. What is your go to karaoke song?

Do people really karaoke?? I have never been to a karaoke bar. The closest I've ever come to this scenario was in Cozumel on vacation when we sat at the bar watching all the drunk parents and the kids (the kids were not drunk...ha) taking part in the nightly karaoke festivities in the hotel lobby. I love to sing, but I don't think I have a go-to song. My favorite song changes daily. It would probably depend on my mood and/or how much I'd had to drink by that point. It could be anything from songs by Tyrone Wells, Kelly Clarkson, Colbie Caillat, The Beach Boys, or Rascal Flatts.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Day 322 & Boy Update

Enjoying a treat tonight - popcorn! I love it and it's light on points. :)

Okay.......so I need to update everyone on the boy drama. Where to begin? I guess the last I talked about it with all of you (some of you are much more up to date due to twitter and email and texts), everyone was saying to go with coworker boy. ;) haha The only way to do this is to tell you a synopsis of each situation.

Coworker Boy - We get along so well it's scary. Conversation is easy. He makes me smile without even really trying. Oh and did I mention that he gives forehead kisses?? *sigh* Cue the drama... Like most 30-somethings, he has experienced his own share of bad relationships, but the problem is that he hasn't found a way to trust again. As much as he wants to be in a relationship, he's too afraid to allow anyone to get really close. I think I snuck in under his defenses, much like he did mine. While I had no problem with this surprising turn of events, coworker boy got anxious and ran for cover. :( We have had a rough week of conversations, leaving me feeling like I've been on a roller coaster. I don't like roller coasters, I can't even ride the Viking Ship at King's Island without getting nauseous. Needless to say, after laying it all on the line this week (something I've never before done with a guy), I've learned that as much as I believe in something feeling right, you can't make the other person grab the opportunity if they aren't ready. So, for the first time in my life (again - so many firsts with this guy, it's insane!), I am just going to remain friends with him. It sucks, majorly. Even my "bro" thinks we'd be great together and was delighting in how happy we both were at the end of the week/over the weekend. I think coworker boy is the type that is generally pretty comfortable talking about his girlfriends with others (he certainly has been since he's worked with us), but neither of us want to share US with work (we've got some majorly noisy people) and I don't think he knows how to handle that new dynamic on top of a new relationship. Friends. Yep, it's working so far. Conversation is still as easy as breathing. I am not holding out any hope for more than what we have now. He's a great guy and as bro says "the damndest nice guy I've ever known", but I can't make him want more. Coworker boy still makes me smile with his smiles (seriously he has an awesome smile) and his intense blue eyes (who's not a sucker for baby blues...as I typed that I realized that 4 of my most serious relationships were with guys with blue eyes!) seem to be looking right through me.

Engineering Boy - A few of you mentioned how I didn't seem to be as giddy about engineering boy, but if I'd given my run-down of his good qualities immediately after our first date, I think it would have been different! My opinion of him last weekend was being colored by the excitement of something new with coworker boy. Anyway, engineering boy is currently in TN (which means out of state) and will be back and forth every week for the next month. When we originally started talking to each other (we met on Match.com), he forewarned me that he might have to spend a lot of time in TN in a few months....well, that time has come sooner rather than later. He is a hard worker and I totally admire that about him, but it feels like I'm being forgotten. We had a long discussion last night (for the second time in a week about this situation) and on my urging, we are going to take a break until he's back in town. This too sucks, but if we're truly interested in each other, we'll be looking forward to seeing each other again next month. He apologized, quite genuinely, for being "that guy" that didn't make me feel special. Sweet, no? Engineering boy definitely knows how to make me smile...and laugh. He is snarky and witty and I enjoy being kept on my toes during our conversations. It's not always as easy for me to feel like we have stuff to talk about, but he honestly works to keep it going. I'll be patiently waiting for him to return in 3-4 weeks and give it another try!

Hotty-Bo-Botty - Oh wait, you haven't heard about boy #3?? hahaha Well, listen up friends! My dear friend, Noelle, gave him his moniker. ;) He is a hotty. Like seriously out of my league hot. I sent Noelle a pic that he sent me so his face would appear in my phone when he called...and her reaction was much like my own! :p This is also a product of Match.com (it's a long story about why I gave this a go...but that's for another day). He's 36, looks like a yummy mix of Indian-American, but he calls himself white. I think his dad looks like he's an Island-Pacificer. He's from Virginia/DC area originally, but recently moved to Cincy. He's been talking to me for the entirety of this year. I have to admit that he intimidates me. Not that he's intimidating because he actually seems like a well-rounded, down-to-earth, next-door kinda guy. The problem is that I feel unworthy of his attention. Hotty-bo-botty is HOT. I am a realist, so I know that my being a good 100 pounds overweight makes me feel like a charity case. He works in sales and makes a good living doing so. He has been insistent about meeting me. I finally agreed to it this week (cause what's one more to the pile of drama, right?), but ever since then...I've not heard from him. So I'm not sure if it's a) the curse of once you have no one in the picture, everyone loses interest or b) the cat caught the mouse and really only wanted to toy with it, not eat it. haha Wait, that didn't sound right. LMAO So now I am just waiting to see if he follows through on meeting in person. Stay tuned for more on this!

Golf Boy - dun, dun, dun.....a 4th boy? WHAT?!? Eek! (I swear I'm not a slutty whore and this is for sure a first time in history that this many guys have been in my life at once - aka why I am so bad at juggling more than 1 at a time - but it's all because of online dating.) Golf boy manages a golf course in Evansville. And trust me, Rajean, if this boy ever makes his move...I will be coming to visit! haha ;) Okay, back to the story. Golf boy is a fellow Purdue grad that was on campus the same time as me and had the same major as MANY of my friends and somehow we never crossed paths. It really amazes me. I realize Purdue is a big school, but it always felt so small to me! He is 30, so we're pretty much the same age. He's from the Indy area originally and is very close to his family. He loves sports, just like me and we never seem to have trouble coming up with stuff to talk about (between Colts, Boilermakers, my previous background in golf course mgmt, etc). Unfortunately, he's never asked to take it beyond emailing on Match. Just this week I offered up my personal email...hoping he would take the leap and try to get to know me even more. He too was heavy in high school and college, then got serious about his health and lost quite a bit of weight. He says he has about 20 pounds he'd like to slim off again....I think he looks great! Anyway, with the mild winter, he hasn't had much downtime at work. We were both at Super Bowl Village at the same time (and knew it), but I don't think he was ready to meet...especially while we were both with our family members. I totally understand and respect that, but I would have liked to have at least met up long enough to say hi and to see if we had any chemistry. He's still in the mix, but it takes much longer to hear back from him because we aren't texting/talking on the phone. When we first started emailing, I had hopes that we'd meet and hit it off. So once again, waiting to see if he makes good on using my personal contact info.

And there you have it...the mess of my current standings with "the boys." haha I am feeling MUCH more like my usual optimistic self tonight. It amazes me that I was so forward with coworker boy (it's not in my nature to be that way around guys I'm interested in...) in telling him what I was feeling. After a week of being beyond honest with him, it felt natural to tell engineering boy how I was feeling while he was away working and not even letting me know he was alive. Then there is hotty-bo-botty and golf boy whom I've been running from and waiting on, respectively. ha As I said earlier this week in a text to my "bro" - I am not cut out for dealing with the feelings of dating more than 1 guy at a time. It's no wonder I never dated much (really, I haven't, it's quite pathetic) and that the ones I did date, went straight to relationship status without any hesitation.

Once again, thanks to everyone for listening to me rant all week about the drama and my frustration with the situations. I keep telling myself that one day it will be worth it when I'm with my dream guy... *sigh* Why does that feel like it's so far away? Ugh. As always, your advice is sincerely appreciated! :)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Day 321

This is definitely a point in life that is up and down...and it shouldn't be. Life has been so good. I am so much stronger than the chaos surrounding me. Chaos caused by boys!! Ugh.

Anyway, today I got a card in the mail. It was a card that I needed. It was a card that was totally unexpected. My dear sweet friend, Liza, sent me a Valentine's card. She has the uncanny ability to always know when I need a smile. Today was one of those days. Thank you Liza! Love you girlie! :)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Easy Huevos Rancheros Casserole

This came from the Ultimate Casseroles recipe magazine that I bought. It is 7 WW+ points per serving. The recipe makes 12 servings, we only made a half batch tonight. It was yummy. A good change-up from the usual meals!

Non-stick cooking spray
1 32-oz package frozen fried potato nuggets
12 eggs
1 c. milk
1 1/2 t. dried oregano, crushed
1 1/2 t. ground cumin
1/2 t. chili powder
1/4 t. garlic powder
1 8-oz package shredded Mexican cheese blend
1 16-oz jar thick and chunky salsa
1 8-oz carton dairy sour cream
snipped fresh cilantro

Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Lightly coat a 3-qt rectangular baking dish with nonstick cooking spray. Arrange potato nuggets in dish.

In a large mixing bowl combine eggs, milk, oregano, cumin, chili powder, and garlic powder. Beat with a wire whisk until combined. Pour egg mixture over potato nuggets.

Bake for 35 to 40 minutes or until a knife inserted near center comes out clean. Sprinkle cheese evenly over egg mixture. Bake about 3 minutes more or until cheese melts. Let stand for 10 minutes before serving. Top with salsa, sour cream, and cilantro. Makes 12 servings.

Day 320

Happy Valentine's Day friends!

I was excited to come home and find my Coach purchases on the doorstep! :) That was a bonus to this usually unhappy day.

opening the packages :)

ID wristlet

small wristlet

new purse - not sold on it for the summer, but it's okay (if you know someone who would love it, I will cut you a deal since I got it on sale!)

This year I took the approach of loving on all my good friends and telling them how much I appreciated them in my life...and it was probably my best one yet! Didn't hurt that I was dressed for the day too...sorry no picture of my outfit, but it caused quite the stir at work! Who knew wearing a skirt (it's a casual - khakis kind of workplace) would get so many comments...the 3 other women who worked there were telling me some good ones. One of the guys asked if they'd seen my legs and the girl responded, what about them? He says, "Erin has legs! She looks good!" hahahaha Mind you this guy is older than my dad and the live-in boyfriend of a good family friend. Too funny.

So tonight mom and I are trying a new recipe from the Casserole Magazine I picked up the other week. If it's good, I'll post it later!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Day 319

The only good thing to come of this day was this sunrise I noticed while making copies this morning at work.

It was an up and down emotional day. I know I need to update ya'll on the co-worker boy story...but it seems it is not as over as I thought. New revelations tonight. I don't really know what is going on at the moment, but I'm going to just let it play out however it's meant to be. Stay tuned for more of this saga.... On another note, engineer boy is out of state for work again this week.

Day 318

Sunday was a fairly relaxed day. I finally felt human again after getting a full 8 hours of sleep! I worked on a design project that morning (since I failed to do it Saturday) and got it all wrapped up. Thank goodness. :) Then I got myself ready for the day and headed north.

Jenna and I made our way to West LaLa. We went to Nine Irish Brothers for Jen's birthday meal! Today (Feb. 13) my baby sister is 27!! And in honor of her birthday, here's a few pics from our younger days. ha

After dinner, we made our way over to Mackey Arena for another Boilermaker basketball game. We were happy to see the team we love pull it together and get a win over Northwestern! The lady behind us was grumpy before the game even started, so we moved down to the Paint Crew section and sat just a few rows up from the bottom of the upper level. (For some reason, the students must have missed the memo about the game!)

Get Your Blog Out There Linkup!

So...you want more followers? You want to meet some new bloggy friends? Then hop over to Neely's page and link-up today! :)

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I started blogging because lots of my married/having kids friends started to chronicle their lives online. I figured, why not me too? Of course, I have nothing nearly as exciting to blog about as they do (hubbies, in-laws, kiddos, etc), but I do have my fur-baby, Toby, who makes a regular appearance here. ;)

I'm a simple girl. I grew up in the country, moved (& fell in love with the city), came back home and learned what it meant to fall in love with my little part of the world.

I'm single. And if you've been following the boy drama lately, I have another twist to the story that I will try to post tonight. Thanks to all of you fabulous ladies who have been keeping up via Twitter & texting. Love you all! :) Who needs stupid boys when you have the love of good friends??

As my blog header says...I'm on a journey to find the real me. Weight loss. Lifestyle change. Exercise lover. Sister. Daughter. Friend. Last year I lost 50 pounds, gained a small chunk of that back, and this year I'm back on the path to slimming down! I'm almost back to that original 50 pound mark with lots more to go, but it gets easier (note: not any less frustrating, but you learn from your mistakes).

I love music. I listen to Pandora radio ALL day long while I'm at work. I sing along to every song on the radio, even to the annoyance of my sister. I could live without my TV. I rarely turn it on and when it is, I forget to watch it. haha

I always try to have a positive attitude (but we all have bad days!) and am ready with a smile.

My favorite time of the year is fall. I love the color green. My favorite flowers are lilies. I have a tattoo on my inner wrist (to the shock of most people who know me). I have a wicked temper that I've learned to control (a lot of people would be happy about that...if they only knew!). I love earrings and rings, but can't stand necklaces...they never fall right and I end up getting annoyed with it.

Have I bored you yet? Do we have some things in common? Leave me a note so I know you stopped by! :)

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Day 317


Seriously. There is no other word for how I feel. I am beyond exhaustion. Too many late nights this past week! I napped one night this week and today I took a 4.5 hour nap! EEK! I am hoping to get to bed early tonight (or at least at a decent hour), but seeing as how it's 8:30pm and I haven't even started on 2 design jobs I need to finish this weekend, that might not happen.

This morning I had to take my car to the dealership for a regular service appointment - oil change/tire rotation/etc. Since my dealer is in Florence, I made a quick trip to Crestview Hills to exchange a top I bought last weekend (I had tried on 2 sizes and grabbed the wrong one!) and pick up a few items at Sephora. It was my first Sephora trip and while I'll always be an Ulta fan, I do foresee more trips to Sephora in the future! That stop hurt my bank account. Why does makeup and supplies have to be so darn expensive?!?

This afternoon when I got home, I slept on the couch for 4.5 hours (I had my alarm set for the 2.5 hour mark, but fell right back asleep when I turned it off...ha). Then we had dinner, started a load of laundry, and did some cleaning. Now I'm procrastinating on my design work and updating my blog. *sigh*

.....and now for the much anticipated (har har har...hardly!) update on the "date" situation. ;) A few of you have been keeping up via Twitter. A few of you have gotten text updates. And now everyone will get the story, abbreviated version. ha

Thursday night I went over to co-worker boy's house to hang out. It was our first "date." A little about co-worker boy: he's 31 (32 next month), grew up in a nearby small town (like it's smaller than my town!), works in Environmental Mgmt/Wastewater Treatment at our plant, is the youngest of 3 boys, lives in a house that some of my older relatives lived in when I was little (that couple is no longer alive), babysits his niece and nephews, stays in shape (seriously, it's a little intimidating to be my size and truly believe he's interested in me - ugh - I digress), he's smart and enjoys learning, he loves sports, he has a dog & cat, he's a country boy and wants to stay in the country, he's sweet, he has a great sense of humor, close to his parents, and as my "bro" would say - he's the darndest nice guy. ;) Back to the story......we watched a couple of basketball games and chatted pretty much the whole time, so much so that I would have a hard time recapping said basketball games. :p He is extremely shy at work, but luckily doesn't seem to have a problem talking to me. I ended up leaving his house at 11:15pm (yes, a 3.5 hour first date) and by the time I was walking in the door to the house, he was texting to tell me he'd had a great time and asking if I'd like to spend more time with him. :) Some side commentary - we sat on his loveseat the whole night, side by side, just BARELY touching. I kept thinking that it felt like he WANTED to put his arm around me, but he never did. I even thought he was gonna lean in for a kiss at the end of the night, but didn't. I'm pretty sure I didn't read the situation wrong and even though I was slightly disappointed about no hug, I was also relieved that he wasn't going to be the pushy type.

Fast forward to Friday night...I went over to co-worker boy's house AGAIN. ;) haha We watched The Tourist...have you seen that movie? It's normally not the type I'd choose, but it was actually good! I missed the first 10 minutes, so he had to fill me in since he'd seen it before, and we chatted off and on during the movie, but mostly just watched in companionable silence. After the movie, we watched parts of a few different basketball games. This time, he actually did pull me in close to him on the loveseat and put his arm around me. ;) Oh.....and he's the forehead-kissing type. Totally a melt-my-heart kinda moment. Always hoped to find a guy like that and now I know they aren't urban legends! ha We watched the end of Austin Powers 2 movie and then that was the end of our night. It was a majorly late night...I'm not even gonna post what time I got home! ha There was lots of talking again during the basketball games. I honestly believe I know more about co-worker boy in our 2 dates and 4 days of "talking" than I did about a few of the guys I've dated in the past.

So the big question from everyone has been....what about engineering boy? (That's the boy from the past Wednesday date) Background info on engineering boy: he's 32, he's an Electrical Engineer that works as a problem solving specialist for a national firm in Cincy, he's originally from the Chicago area, the oldest of 3 boys, extremely sarcastic, great sense of humor, loves city life, is really outgoing, enjoys being challenged (he took advanced courses as Rose Hulman - can we say, crazy man?), he has a dog, he's close with his family, and he's the hugging type. He got back in town late Thursday night and we have been texting since he's been back, but not quite the intensity as before. It's hard to distinguish if it's because he's so busy with work, he's just not that interested, or if it's because I'm not as interested. Ugh.

Moral of the story - juggling 2 guys is not for the faint of heart. There is a reason why I've only ever dated one guy at a time. ha I always watched friends date several guys at a time and one right after the other. I don't think I'm cut out for the life of a serial dater. I just wanna find that one guy that I can imagine spending every day with...is that really so much to ask??

Okay, an hour later and I just finished typing this...and no, I haven't started the design work yet...and I was planning to go to bed at 10pm. :(

Friday, February 10, 2012

Day 316

It's a snowy day in Indiana! It's a pretty, fluffy white snow...but it's extremely wet. Nothing is really sticking, which is just fine by me; however, it's supposed to be 16 degrees tonight and that means all that water is gonna get icy! Not so happy about that possibility.

Today as I was pulling into the driveway, I tried to capture the snowflakes! All my southern friends, you can HAVE the snow. I insist. I'll send it to ya at no charge! ;)

5QF - 2/10

Happy Friday!! This week has just been the longest week ever and I am so thankful that it's coming to an end!! It was a rollercoaster of emotions this week and I'm hoping that part of it is over as well. I just want to go back to my steady, happy nature. :)

This week I was a total bum in regards to exercise...and my food choices. I halfway picked good foods and halfway ate junk. My weigh-in this morning revealed that I surprisingly lost 1 pound!! I was just praying not to gain more than a pound so I was doing a happy dance!

**I know a few of you will be after me because there's no update on last night's date with co-worker boy. I will try to update ya'll later this weekend, but suffice it to say that for me - it was the best first date I've ever had. ;) AND we are repeating it tonight. (there are not enough smiley faces for this little paragraph, so you'll have to imagine me smiling like a huge dork!) Thanks to all of you, it was a unanimous vote amongst my friends to go out with him. I can't believe I was going to say no. Turns out we have way more in common than I'd ever thought possible and we have just enough differences to keep conversation interesting. That's all I'm saying for now...don't wanna jinx a good thing!**

And now for some 5QF fun...one of the questions is again mine, so hope you'll play along!

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1. How often do you shave your legs in the winter?

Um, not very often! I suppose if I were dating someone that I would make much more of an effort; however, I haven't been seeing anyone regularly, so that kinda falls to the wayside. I just hate taking the time to do it! I have waxed before and I LOVED it (and yes it was painful, but not as bad as I anticipated it being), but I am allergic to the wax. My sis and I have looked into sugaring, but not sure if my super sensitive skin could handle it or not. I do not want a repeat of the waxing incident. EEK! I think this might need to be amended in the near future, I typed it last night before the date....ha

2. Valentine's Day card for your spouse: funny or romantic?

No spouse, but most likely funny or a combo of the two. I like to laugh and smile, so the funny would be more me than an overly sappy card. I just look forward to the day when I get a V-Day card again because I haven't gotten one since I was in grade school and they were mandated! haha

3. What are you most looking forward to about spring?

I love the green grass and SUNSHINE!!! I seriously need sunshine. It doesn't have to be warm for me. I just need the sun. :)

4. What's your favorite way to pamper yourself?

Pedicure. I love getting pedicures and it's so relaxing. I wish I could afford them more often that I do, but I guess it makes it that much more enjoyable!

5. Does your tax return go into savings or do you spend it instantly?

I would be thrilled to save that I could save it. It usually goes to pay a bill or make a big purchase. I've put it towards travel, exercise equipment, debt, etc. This year I am just hoping to not have to pay! I made quite a bit more than I previously have and some of it (like my Scentsy commission) is untaxed. Ugh. :(

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Day 315

I tell ya....it's a super exciting night. Fixed dinner right after work because I was starving. (Grilled salmon fillet & wild rice! yum!) Grabbed a quick shower. 2 loads of laundry in progress. Chatted with mom. Snuggled with Toby. And oh  yeah, a "date" with co-worker boy. ;)

It's all still a little bizarre feeling, but I'd be lying if I didn't say that he's just as nice as I thought he would be and probably even better of a guy than I previously assumed. We chatted quite awhile last night (for 2 hours via text) and learned quite a bit about each other and our families. He even texted me today during his lunch and his break. Which was kinda cute...and a little bit strange to be in the same building, but not near each other...texting. Anyway. He asked me to come over and hang out tonight, so that's what we're going to do. I'd say it can loosely be termed a date, but we'll see how it goes. He is super duper shy. I'm hoping I don't have to do a lot of coaxing to get him to talk to me in person like he does through his phone! The bad thing is that I'm actually quite shy myself (those of you who know me best, know that I struggle in new situations to be the extrovert that I am with my closest friends/family). This could be interesting. hahaha

Today's picture - sorry no new cute outfit. The boy is getting the tshirt and jeans me tonight! ha I mean, we're sitting in his house watching a basketball game. Thank goodness we'll be cheering for the same team. ;) But today, I did wear my hair in a (what I think looked cute & what my sis informed looked good when I modeled it before I bought it) low ponytail at the nape of my neck, pulled back in this super cute sparkly black barrette. I tried to get a pic of it in my hair, but none of them turned out, so you'll have to settle for a pic of just the barrette! :p

Keep your fingers crossed for me! ;) And a mega shout out of THANKS to Nikki, Noelle, Missy, and Kayla for the encouragement to just take this opportunity and see what happens! You girls are awesome and I'm so blessed to call you my friends!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Day 314

Today was an interesting day. I think the term...when it rains, it pours...would apply to the past week or so. And no, I'm not talking about actual rain. ha I had the most enlightening (and real) conversation with a co-worker when I left work tonight. He is my "brother" I never wanted. ;) We grew up going to the same church and he's known me since I was born, he's about 10 years older than me. We joke around all the time and give each other a hard time. I mentioned something to him at work today which of course needed a bigger discussion than we could have at work, so as I was headed home, my phone rang...it was my "bro." I am so glad we had the discussion and yet I'm utterly flabbergasted. It takes a lot to render me speechless and I still feel like my brain is mush! I can't wrap my brain around it.

Suffice it to say that when one guy is interested, at least 1 more will be. When no one is interested, it is a barren desert. That's the honest truth!

Last week AFTER my date night, a different co-worker (not my bro) popped into the office and nonchalantly asked me out. I am amazed that I was able to keep my mouth from gaping open! I mean....WOW. It's not that he's not a nice guy. He seems to be. I don't honestly know much about him (yeah, yeah...says the HR girl) because he's so darn quiet. He has a great smile and he's a cute guy. I think I am mostly shocked because I don't feel like he knows much about me (he's maybe said 10 words to me since he started in October) and he's not really the type of guy I'd normally date (which is good, right?) and I don't consider myself to be his type. Apparently he told my "bro" that he was interested in going out with me, but that message never made it to me because bro has always joked that I should go after this guy because we're both single and I always denied it saying I'd never date someone I worked with. The guy who asked me out doesn't know about any of that other scenario...or even that I've gone on a date with someone else (though it's far from exclusive). WHAT DO I DO?? If we didn't work together, I'd probably say yes to a date just to see if we had anything in common. Working together (although we don't really...I'm in the office on 1st shift and he's in the plant and will be on 2nd shift coming up in a few weeks) poses a new dynamic. Now the date-asker has taken it upon himself to find reasons to come into the office to "see" me. Not talk to me, but look at me...be in the same room as me. When I walk out into the plant, I feel like I'm being watched (because I am!). It's like he has a radar on me. hahaha This is so insane. Am I making too much out of this?!? AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

I guess I should back up and say that I glossed over not being available last weekend because I had weekend plans at the Super Bowl Village and then the Purdue basketball game. Talking to my bro today, he told me even more to the previous knowledge of date-asker wanting to ask me out....he told my bro today that he thought I looked really cute and if he had the balls, he'd go in the office and find a reason to talk to me! EEK! So now I KNOW he's finding reasons to come into the office, even though he hasn't found the courage to ask me out again or talk to me since asking me out originally, I know it's only a matter of time until he does. I feel like the clock is ticking and I need to decide what to do before then. HELP! You can email me (most of you have my email) or message me here or send me a tweet or text me. I mean, I need some serious consultation on this matter! ha

Coincidentally, I did feel cute today....I was wearing another of my new purchases from the weekend. I bought this cute top (in 2 different colors) from Lane Bryant - in the SMALLEST size I've ever gotten there!! A 14/16. I am stoked. :) Sorry it's not a great picture (why can't I look as good in pics as real life??), but I do love the shirt.

7x7 Blog Award

Number 1 - Thank the person who nominated you!

I have the honor of thanking the lovely Nikki over at The Pink Growl! Nikki and I have gotten to know each other through our blogs and twitter...and I'm hoping to meet her IRL this fall! She's an awesome down-to-earth gal who loves her sports as much as I do. :)

Number 2 - Share 7 things about yourself.

1. My current favorite TV show is The Voice. I love love love Blake Shelton & Adam Levine and their snarky comments to each other! The judges all keep it interesting and the talent is off the charts. If you haven't watched it yet, go check it out. It's season 2 and it's better than ever.


2. You already know this, but for any new people out there...I am a big Purdue Boilermakers fan! I claim being brainwashed in the womb (both parents & an uncle & my paternal grandfather are grads). haha I love Big 10 sports and you can always find me cheering on my Boilers! #BoilerUp


3. I have sung for weddings. The most recent one was 2 years ago, going on 3 probably. Goodness! It feels like it's been a lifetime ago. I grew up being carted around to a wedding EVERY weekend of the summer and early fall months because my mom is a super talented pianist/organist and one of our good family friends is an equally talented vocalist. Some of my favorite childhood memories revolve around those weddings and being in awe of mom and Pam. It's been fun to sing at weddings when mom plays! Unfortunately, I've strained my voice SOOOOO many times that I have to be careful about choosing to do public performances these days...but my heart will always be happy when I'm singing.


4. I am a Coach purse addict. I would buy them all the time IF I could afford 'em! As much as my sister is shocked by the behavior, I also sell them in order to fund the next purchase. ha Hey, a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do! My 1st Coach purse was bought in NYC at the mega Coach store and my favorites were purchased at the outlet in Sevierville, TN.


5. My cell phone is really just an extension of me. Seriously. I am so thankful that texting and twitter weren't around when I was in college because I would never have accomplished a thing! On another note, when texting first became popular, I resisted until a boyfriend talked me into it. I somehow thought 200 text messages a month would be sufficient. LMAO Yeah, right. Try a $1,000 cell phone bill later (although I talked it down to $300 - for 3 lines altogether) and I have been an unlimited texter ever since!! There have been points in life that I have been a 500+ text message per day kinda gal. It's slowed way down since then. :p


6. The car I'm currently driving, a 2011 Chevy Cruze, is my first ever new car...and the first car I bought in my name only! It was a pretty big deal to get the loan on my own and I'm still darn proud of my little car. I love it! If I were to go back and pick a new car again, I'd be hard pressed to choose a different car (although I love both of my cousins cars, Hyundai Sonata).

7. Toby is my spoiled rotten baby. I really thinks he believes he's human...or maybe a cat. Besides the barking there isn't much to indicate he's a dog. haha He's cute lil mug gets him out of trouble most of the time. His mamaw (aka my mom) lets him think he's king of the house. The sad thing is - it really is his house, he just allows us to live there!

Number 3 - Share 7 of your blog posts that fit into the following categories:

Most beautiful: MK Photo Shoot wish I looked that good EVERY day...ha
Most helpful: I don't wanna spend my whole life asking... it was helpful to myself, not sure about anyone else, but that song still resonates with me!
Most popular: Day 307 this cracks me up because the most popular post in a long time was the one where I shared that I went on a date...haha...I know, I'm totally boring and never date anymore even though the one thing I want most in life is a family of my own. I just kept hoping God would bring the right one without me searching so hard and since that has happened (yet), I'm going to date whomever comes along.
Most controversial: I honestly couldn't think of anything and the one that I thought probably crossed the line, I couldn't find. ha It was about elections & I was on my soap box. :p
Most surprisingly successful: WW Before & After everyone was so kind and I really didn't expect any comments! I am 2 pounds lighter than I was in the "after" picture and looking forward to taking several more of these!
Most underrated: Starting a Revolution! I still am a big fan of ionic detoxes and would encourage everyone to try one if you have a local place that offers them. Worth every penny.
Most pride-worthy: G'Day Mates! actually this is just 1 of MANY posts about my one-month Australia/New Zealand/Hong Kong trip (read the whole series if you must! ha) but I feel blessed that I was able to afford this trip for myself and proud that I did it on my own! my 1st international trip - my 1st solo trip

Number 4 - Nominate 7 other bloggers.

1. Jenn at Bliss to Bean
2. Breanna at Counting Blessings
3. Rajean at DR Bergman
4. Missy at Writing Home
5. Sarah Kate at Nothing But Blue Skies
6. Tammy at Lemons, Avocados, and the Bay
7. Meghan at Little Girl in the Big World

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